..can’t shake this funky feeling of being down and melancholy and I find myself just unable to adjust to my new found freedom. I thought I be bouncing off the walls and celebrating every night of the week but that does not seem to be the case. Instead I feel like my life has suddenly been marginalized. I am haunted by very livid nightmares where I am running out of time on exam day. I signed up for golf lessons and bought my self an Ipod (as I promised myself) but still can’t shake this moody feeling. I put away the study notes and CFAI texts and I bought myself a book on Amazon and subscribed to the Economist but can’t seem to concentrate on what I am reading. I know it is said with the best intention but can’t handle friends and family asking me “How I did” or telling me “they’re sure that I passed”. It just sends me into a deeper funk. I find moments of overwhelming anxieties when I start thinking about the exam and all the sacrifices and time I put into preparing for it and only to get another “F”… it’s a dreadful feeling.
Not looking for anyone to hold my hand but just want to throw out my post L2 experience.
Not looking for anyone to hold my hand but just want to throw out my post L2 experience.